Halloween Party

So somehow I volunteered to be in charge of a craft at Damon's Halloween party. Unfortunately, I was told that the room mom would get back to me to verify and totally spaced it until 2 days ago. Then yesterday she called and confirmed that I was indeed in charge of a craft. (Including purchasing/bringing supplies!) I wasn't sure what I was going to do so I spent like an hour looking all over the Internet and finally found something that seemed like it would take the allotted amount of time and be fairly self explanatory to a bunch of second graders. I then had to wait till Darin's paycheck was direct deposited this morning to go buy the necessary materials and after attending the "Halloween Parade" at the school, I rushed home to attempt to make this Halloween craft! I'm excited to say that it worked out just fine.... here's a pic of my handy work.

Sorry, it's shadowy cause it's not flat and I just scanned it. So I know it's a little silly.. but it will work!!! I wasn't sure what to use for hip bones and all I had in my pantry was mini marshmallows... so there you go! It is also made of Q-tips and glue. That's all.... so not too bad is it? It's simple... but I'm kind of proud! :o)

Pregnancy..... Hmm....

So... I've been pregnant for practically 10 weeks now.. (minus the 2 weeks I wasn't actually pregnant that count as being pregnant! ;o) ) And so far... so good. Besides hormones... which may cause a divorce if they don't stop kicking my ass.... I really haven't been too sick, just really really tired and did I mention BITCHY?? Seriously people. I am so laid back. It kills me to feel all whiney about everything but alas, it's my last pregnancy so I just need to suck it up for 30 more weeks. Lately I have been having a very interesting fear. In previous births I have felt a great DESIRE to have a girl. I mean, with my hubby having 7 boys in his family, I guess I felt like if I could just get one girl then I would know that I didn't have "The Curse". WIth this pregnancy, I am actually concerned. What if I do have a girl? I don't think I want one anymore. I mean really what would I do with a girl? It would be fun to shop in the girl section and do her hair all cute, but girls turn into young ladies.... and teenagers.... and can physically push out a baby. BLECK!! I don't want to deal with teenage girls, periods, boobs, hormones. Anyway... I just keep telling myself I'm having a boy. I'm sure that this will be the scenario. I already call my tummy "HE" and I'm constantly thinking of boy names. So for everyone who knows me, and knows that the odds are against me anyway... I would appreciate if you would reassure me that once again my baby will have a penis!!! I love boys!

Josiah!!

So today I had the pleasure of attending the birth of my newest nephew, Josiah Lewis Bartlett. He is beautiful. It was an amazing experience. The birth was a little difficult. My sis-in-law was induced and on the highest dose of pitocin for several hours. The baby also turned out to be "face up" so the pressure was much more intense than anticipated! She did amazing anyway and managed to make it unmedicated even with all of the chaos. Her Dr. was wonderful and my brother was the best support any hubby could be! So congrats to Justin and Jessica! And thanks for letting me be a part of it! :o)

Roosevelt

So Darin is working far away in Roosevelt for the next couple of days! I have no idea what to anticipate for my boys during this time but I'm sure it will be exciting either way. Tomorrow I am so excited to be attending the birth of the newest Bartlett. Josiah Lewis Bartlett is scheduled for delivery via induction tomorrow and I know it's going to be a completely different adventure from the last birth I attended. I really need to break out my manuals and do some refreshing... I want to be the best doula I can be! ;o)

Hormones suck!

So I just wanted to take a minute to apologize to everyone who loves me for my bitchy ways! I seriously hate feeling ticked off all the damn time but alas... I can't make the constant ball of frustration in my head go away! I have tried... but have been unsuccessful. It's really hard for me to feel angry so often because that just isn't who I am! I think I'm really happy that this will be my last pregnancy, cause it will be the last time in my life that I have to feel this way. I do remember these feelings with Dominic! It was like a yearning to be and feel normal. I hope it passes soon cause I really do hate it! So bare with me all of you. I really do hope that soon it will be all better.

When opportunity knocks!

So my children always take the most opportune times to be HORRIBLE!! It's like they look at me and see that I am weak and tired and they say... hey now's a good time to torture mom! Hit me and I'll hit you back and we'll run around the house screaming of injustices while mom cries! It's like they run in opposite directions so I can't catch them both! Seriously... today has been so frustrating! I really really need a nap! Maybe tomorrow I will make the boys walk to school so they can get a deeper appreciation for everything I do for them... because I would hate for them to take things in life for granted!

Lyrics on my mind!

Cold As You - Taylor Swift

you have a way of coming easily to me

and when you take, you take the very best of me

so i start a fight cause i need to feel something

and you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted

oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day

just walk away, ain't no use defending words that you will never say

and now that i'm sitting here thinking it through

i've never been anywhere cold as you

you put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray

and i stood there loving you and wished them all away

and you come away with a great little story

of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you

oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day

just walk away, ain't no use defending words that you will never say

and now that i'm sitting her thinking it through

i've never been anywhere cold as you

you never did give a damn thing honey but i cried, cried for you

and i know you wouldn't have told nobody if i died, died for you

oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day

every smile you fake is so condescending

counting all the scars you made

and now that i'm sitting here thinking it through

i've never been anywhere cold as you

Maybe He'll Notice Her Now - Mindy McCready

She wrote, "I feel just like that painting, collecting dust on the wall

And every day you walk right by me, and don't know I'm there at all

And I can't think of one single reason, why I should be hanging around"

She signed it, "I hope that you'll miss me", and she drove herself out of town

Maybe he'll notice her now, maybe he'll open his eyes

Sometimes it takes somebody leaving for a man to realize

Maybe he'll tell her she's the only thing that he can't live without

Now that she's gone maybe he'll notice her now

When he came home late that evening, he called her name down the hall

He saw the outline of the painting that used to hang there on the wall

And in its place on the nail was a letter, he read it out loud to himself

And the loneliness began to take over and for once he knew just how she felt

Maybe he'll notice her now, maybe he'll open his eyes

Sometimes it takes somebody leaving for a man to realize

Maybe he'll tell her she's the only thing that he can't live without

Now that she's gone maybe he'll notice her now

He called her up, he said I have been such a fool

She said I will come back and boy I still love you

Maybe he'll notice her now, maybe he'll open his eyes

Sometimes it takes somebody leaving for a man to realize

Maybe he'll tell her she's the only thing that he can't live without

Now that she's gone maybe he'll notice her now

I'm coming home, maybe you'll notice me now