I feel bullied.

I don't know where to go with that.

I wonder if I'm doing more harm than good by allowing it.

I don't know how to change it.

I don't want to fight it!

I don't want to run from it.

Maybe I want it to run from me.

I'm tired.

I want a change!

I NEED A CHANGE!

I'm helpless.

I'm scared.

I'm SO tired.

I want to rejoice in every moment.

I fear the day.

I change but it stays the same.

I am not strong enough.

So I sit...

and wait....

for it to get better

or for the bomb to go off.