Surprise!!!!!

Here is the story as best I can tell it!!! Today marks the 6 week "anniversary" of the miscarriage. I took a pregnancy test 3 weeks ago that came back positive but everything I read on the Internet said it can take up to 6 weeks to get a negative test and 6 weeks to have a period. Well.. I've been waiting fairly patiently but still have not started my period. So yesterday I went to walmart and bought another pregnancy test cause I figured... this will be my peace of mind! I peed on the stick with great vigor only to be completely blown away (and terrified) when it was STILL POSITIVE!!!

I had been researching the absence of this period and knew from my many online sources that positive pregnancy tests that far after a loss can only mean that you have not completely dispelled the tissue! UGH!!! Now really if it's been six weeks I should be very sick by now... which I haven't been, but I still just assumed this meant I was going to have to fork out the money, go to the DR. and have a D&C!
I e-mailed the midwife I was planning on using, but decided to call another midwife who I knew had A LOT of personal experience with miscarriage. The following is our phone conversation!

K: Hi Holly, this is Kari Adams, I'm wondering if you have a minute to talk to me.
H: Sure what's up?
K: I miscarried 6 weeks ago but still haven't had a period and got a positive pregnancy test today!
H: How do you know you miscarried?
(WHAT?!?!?! I was totally blown away by this!)
K: Well, I was bleeding lots of bright red blood and passed a palm sized clot....
H: Nope... I think you're still pregnant!
(WTF?!?!?!? Is that even possible?)
H: It doesn't sound like you passed any tissue... tissue is gray.
K: But the clot was so big and it was really thick and could not be separated!
H: Nah... if it looked like liver... it was a clot!
K: Can you just do that? Actively bleed and pass clots while you are pregnant and still be pregnant?
H: YUP!! I have twice!

So at this point I'm completely flabbergasted and she says the cheapest way to find out if I'm pregnant or not is to go to the Ultrasound place in the mall (that tells you what the sex of your baby is) and pay $50 for an ultrasound. So I called them up and scheduled it after Darin got off work. He met me at the mall and we tried to explain that we thought we had miscarried... blah blah blah and she understands and says, kay lets do this! She puts the jelly on my belly and then the ultrasound probe and the first thing I see looks something like this:

Followed by this lovely profile:

Followed very closely by this:

I couldn't stop the tears from flowing. There floating inside me is this beautiful little person who I was certain had died. So boys and girls... my baby has a heartbeat.... and a penis! ;o)